?

Log in

22 September 2006 @ 04:06 pm
Choose today to face the challenges, and you'll come away stronger. Decide that
you will find a way to do what you know must be done, and the value you create
will endure long after this day is over.

Rediscover the sense of real, honest and irreplaceable fulfillment that comes
from moving in the direction you know is right. Experience the satisfaction of
knowing that you are truly making a positive difference.

Plant seeds of hope and encouragement with those you encounter. Keep your heart
filled with gratitude for the beauty and the possibilities that flow through
your world at all times.

Enjoy the reality of being alive and aware at this moment in this place. Look
for the positive in every situation and you will find it.

This day is your opportunity to put your dreams, your values, your hopes and
goals and desires into action. This day is your opportunity to allow the best
that is inside you to flow out into the world.

Jump enthusiastically into this day and live it as if everything you become
depends on the path you choose to follow. For on this day, it does.
 
 
30 August 2006 @ 05:32 am
As I wake up this morning, I realize how grateful I am for what I have gained here in Houston over the past year. I am surrounded by loving friends in recovery that are all doing the steps needed to stay sober.

There is so much going on in my life geared towards staying sober, it is up to me to tap in to this energy to proceed on my journey. In just one year, I went from being a new resident, isolating and hiding my addiction from others, to someone who is likeable and a part of recovery.

I must remember today that nothing comes for free and I owe my new found happiness to the work I put in to my recovery program. Nothing is more important than this.
 
 
08 August 2006 @ 08:00 pm
Well, so here is another life experience I can realte to my recovery.

I have seen this in many corporations, yet seem to get frustrated when I see them. It is the classic scenario of too many cooks in the kitchen.

In this episode, a sales guy has been in contact with a company that has pitched him a tracking system for vehicles that he is gung ho on. This sales person has not put any consideration into the cost, implemenation time, or concerns of my department. Basically, this person drops it in our lap and expects us to run with it.

I could go on and on, but I will focus on the solution that works for me on this. First off, one saying that comes to mind is "live and let live". I can use this saying today by accepting that I am not running the show and should expect nothing from anyone but myself. Not to sound drastic, but in all reality, if I am OK, then everything else is the way it is. I do not respond well to criticism or any "you should" statements. I am conscious of this and try to make progress making the correct replies today, for which I am grateful.

Secondly, as I write this, I reflect a little more on the fear topic I hear so much in AA. I am not sure if I am on the right path for this, but maybe my fear of insecurity and fear of ego is what aids in my aggravation. I can see myself being thought of as incompitent and being fearful of it. It is so east to see this in others, the fear part, yet I am slowly coming to terms with it as I see it in myself. I need some assisstance with this fear stuff, yet I can somewhat feel a connection to it when these issues arouse. As far as being grateful, for today, I am grateful that this is something I recognize as a character defect that has been around for a long time and the fact that I am willing to work on it.

Another issue that comes up is the idea of change. My boss and I proposed a project at work that will aid everyone involved. It will track help desk tickets and evenly distribute work that is usually handed to us, even though it is not our duty to do it. No other employees that work with IT want to have anything to do with it. My boss and I can sit around and come up with a million reasons why we think they do not want it, never hearing a valid argument in our opinion. I have a hard time when people just want to take the easy way out of things, especially when *I* think it is right! ;)

I am grateful to realize the major ego and selfishness that must be aparent in the above paragraph. I am eager to learn more about myself.
 
 
05 August 2006 @ 12:22 pm
Hi everyone, I'm new here so I thought I'd introduce myself. 
My name is Megan and I'm an alcoholic.

That feels good. It feels good to say/write that.

Anyhow, I'm coming up on one month of sobriety. I know it's not much but it means the world to me. I started drinking at a very young age and recently had the realization that I had to change something or I was going to ruin my life. So I'm now attending AA meetings. It's helping me immensely.

Anyhow, I'm excited to be here and part of this community!

One day at a time!

Megan
 
 
03 August 2006 @ 01:51 pm
I hope this OK with my sponsor, but I am going to change the format of my gratitude list today.

Last night, close to the time I was getting off work, we experienced some problems at work. I was called about an hour after I left work while shopping for groceries. Immediately, I went to some addict thinking. Here I am, a person hired to DO a job, and I am getting irritable because now it is time to do it.

Instead of focusing on the fact that when I smoke crack and use alcohol, I have no job, no money, no partner, no friends, no desires, and no motivation to be positive, I focused on my ego.

So, what did I do? I did the work and became aware of the attitude I had when doing it and after. I am consciously making the next right decision during today in how I discuss what I did with others here.

I am grateful to be aware of this, as this kind of situation surfaces in my life, sometimes daily.

I ask for help in this situation today and have hope that it will be removed from me.
 
 
Current Mood: relaxedrelaxed
 
 
 
01 August 2006 @ 04:11 pm
1. I am grateful to be sober today.

2. I am grateful my problems are what I make them.

3. I am grateful I have a choice today.

4. I am grateful I am in a relationship today.

5. I am grateful I have a sponsor to talk too.

6. I am grateful that someone in the program called me today.

7. I am grateful for my new real friends in AA.

8. I am grateful I am at my job today.

9. I am grateful I can leave work in my own car today.

10. I am grateful I can choose to go to a meeting after work.

11. I am grateful people are not scared of me today.

12. I am grateful I can pause when agitated and post here.
 
 
27 July 2006 @ 08:14 am
1. I am grateful to be sober today.

2. I am grateful to be able to think today.

3. I am grateful for asking for help today.

4. I am grateful to have a schedule today.

5. I am grateful for waking up next to my partner today.

6. I am grateful for trust to be coming back into my life.

7. I am grateful I am not scared of people today.

8. I am grateful to be of service today.

9. I am grateful to be able to get Starbuck's today.

10. I am grateful to have a job today.

11. I am grateful for my friends today.

12. I am grateful I realize I am grateful for nothing when I drink or use.
 
 
Current Mood: accomplished
 
 
26 July 2006 @ 08:05 am
1. Today I am grateful I asked for help.

2. Today I am grateful I took action.

3. Today I am grateful I shared at a meeting.

4. Today I am grateful I really MADE A DECISION.

5. Today I am grateful for my sponsor.

6. Today I am grateful I hit a potential roadblock in recovery and did what was suggested.

7. Today I am grateful for my Higher Power.

8. Today I am grateful to be hungry.

9. Today I am grateful to put effort into my personal relationships.

10. Today I am grateful to have a computer to type this on.

11. Today I am grateful to be able to visit my family.

12. Today I am grateful to extend the hand of AA to a newly sober person.
 
 
25 July 2006 @ 09:00 am
1. I am grateful to be sober.

2. I am grateful to see others today.

3. I am grateful the promises are slowly coming true for me today.

4. I am grateful to be loved.

5. I am grateful to live in the day vs oblivion.

6. I am grateful for my job.

7. I am grateful I can buy my own cigarettes.

8. I am grateful to be an uncle.

9. I am grateful to have a partner.

10. I am grateful I can lead others to the hand of AA.

11. I am grateful to see myself in other addicts.

12. I am graetful for the interests in my life starting to come back to me.
 
 
Current Mood: tiredtired
 
 
20 July 2006 @ 08:15 am
1. I am grateful to be sober today.

2. I am grateful to have friends today.

3. I am grateful to wake up next to my partner today.

4. I am grateful to not have secrets today.

5. I am grateful for a schedule today.

6. I am grateful to have seen my sponsor today.

7. I am grateful to ask for help today.

8. I am grateful to realize nothing is important as me staying sober today.

9. I am grateful I can respond versus react today.

10. I am grateful for an appetite today.

11. I am grateful to be let people be who they are today.

12. I am grateful for Bob Marley today.